14.6.05

More of the life drama

You know when you walk into a room and people suddenly stop talking? That happened to me today when I got to work. When I was coming up the stairs, I heard them talking, but since I've been sick lately, my hearing is a little off. I heard them saying that they had seen this person “como sin ganas,” among other things.

When I walked into the room, I wasn't surprised to hear them stop talking. When I'm going through these phases, people always talk. Although it bothers me, I'm used to it. Being the youngest in my family, I've always been subjected to criticism.

Some people blame Dan the Man for all this. Because he hasn't gone to college, they feel that he has lower expectations and for this reason, I'm going to lower mine. This seems absolutely absurd to me, but even though I have attempted to clarify such reasoning, it still fails to convince anyone. But you know, whatever.

I could sit here and list all the things people have said, are saying and will say. I could sit here and freak out about it all. But right now, I need to focus on finding a new job. Not that I don't like working for APP, but I can't stay there because I'm not a student anymore. All I want is a job that will afford me enough money to pay my bills and give me time in the evenings to write and prepare for grad school. If that's underachieving, then so be it. This is my transitional year and I'm taking full responsibility for the outcome.

5 comments:

cindylu said...

I've been listening to Me Vale by Maná a lot lately. What if you played that loud at work? Hah.

mariposatomica said...

Suggestion: Think public relations. Tons of free stuff and lots of writing.

Cracked Chancla said...

college is not for everyone, brown girl. (my husband is barely coming around to signing up for it--and thats on his own terms.) don't listen to what others say, you are never going to please everyone--someone is always going to have something to shake their finger at you for. anyhow, i'm sure that a college education will not change how you feel about dan the man. enjoy your transitional year, perhaps you should consider keeping a journal to track your progress.

Gwen said...

People who have chosen to work at non-profits (or "almost non-profits") love to act like everybody else is selling out. If I could afford to do what I loved for nothing and still somehow pay rent and bills, I would.

Do what you have to do in order to take care of yourself, and let others do the same. And don't feel bad about it.

The Noon said...

Good luck to you -- let us, your readers, know if we can help w. the job search.

"A palabras necias, oídos sordos"